Originally recorded on the album "Look for the Cracks" (2010).
lyrics
When I said a relationship with you would be catastrophic,
what I really meant to say was, simply, I was scared
Scared of the realizations you'd inspired within myself
Scared of surrendering myself to an unknown destination
Scared of your spontaneity and your reckless explorations
Scared of exposing myself in ways I was not prepared
But those times I gave in, followed your lead, turned out to be so sweet
like that time on Coral Island you convinced me to feed the fishies
which turned out to be one of the most perfect moments of my life
seeing coral for the first time, tropical fish nibbled my fingers
and to this day there still remain sensations that still linger
and to think, it would not have happened if you'd given up on me
Singing:
"Let's feed the fishies!
It will be so much fun!
Let's feed the fishies!
Come on everyone
Let's feed the fishies!
before it gets too dark
Let's feed the fishies!
and hope we don't meet sharks
But now I've come along quite a bit since that day in Erfurt
Heaven forbid, not 'grown up' in that age-old compromise
But I've grown beyond the parameters of my pathetic comfort zones
and have realized the value of abandoning hesitations
which have ruined so many moment of beauty or creation
I've developed a newfound sort of light around my eyes
And you saw it in its beginnings, when you noticed it in Easton
and Sheridan saw it radiate from a distance of three blocks
and you coaxed it diligently, though at the time I wasn't ready
to embody all those aspects of who I was to be
many of which you too embodied, and did so effortlessly
It would take a few more months for me, more new faces and conversations
Singing:
Let's feed the fishies!
We'll feed them mangosteens
Let's feed the fishies!
and hope they're not too mean
Let's feed the fishies!
La la la la la
Let's feed the fishies!
La la la la la
Now I've developed a healthy perspective of having no regrets
but with you I can't help wonder if I've missed an opportunity
but we can't regret the past because it remains unchanged
and besides, it doesn't exist, and neither does the future
so we'll just have to be present, though it's still a bit unsure
and eventually it will reveal just what we'll grow to be
When I said a relationship with you would be catastrophic,
what I really meant to say was, simply, I was scared
credits
from Mauled By An Otter,
released April 10, 2012
Scott Erickson - organ, vocals
Aaron James Gates - electric guitar
Tuesday - Korg Kaossilator
Casio - beats
Group vocals - April Matson, Ally Hoyne, Sleepy Bear, Tuesday, Scott, Aaron, Whitney's mom's cockatiels
Romanteek is one of my favorite local bands, and Matt collaborated with me on "Cobwebs & Constellations" and "Adaptations to a Modern Age." Scott Steven Erickson
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